she was walking in the dark, following just her desires...
tired of walking blind, she realized she was so close to fall..
she did her best to hold herself, cuz her equilibrium was fading away..
she could only pray to God, to see all the steps she had walked,
so she could go back and not get stucked..
she saw all her mistakes, and all the things she had done to herself..
she could not understand how far she had walked
how many times she cryed inside and that her mind could not recognize
THAT ALL HER DESIRES TO MISTAKE AND FORGET WERE KILLING HER SO FAST..

she thought she didnt worth enough to deserve real love..
she thought her strenght was to pretend to herself that everything was ok..
she learned to smile and cover her tears
she became the girl that 'didnt' feel..

she gave her life 1 mistake, that cost 2 angels that could give love to her..

she now cant go back, she can only start walking into the other side
she cant forget, she cant erase, she needs to start to ACCEPT..

even if it hurts, she is recognizing all her mistakes..
she is looking for a light...she is learning to smile with ALL HER HEART..

SHE DESERVES LOVE.. PURE LOVE..
so she is ready to give the best of her...
but also to receive only the good, and learn to reject what is not good for her..

step by step she will walked into the other side..
love and flowers are waiting for her...
2 angels are watching her steps
one God is looking at her..
yes, knowledge strenght and a life to correct with love are waiting for her..


                                                      Vanessa Carranza
                                                            Sept 10, 2008